Vivienne made a very dramatic entrance into this world, apparently it wasn’t in her plans to be four days late and she made sure we all knew that she was not happy with the delay.
Vivi has had to return to the hospital every day this week for one test or another.
Today’s being an x-ray.
There’s something about your baby’s tiny body being held down by a stranger on a giant cold table while you watch from behind a leaded wall. And that something is not wonderful.
She has four doctors appointments with three different doctors in the next week, one of them a specialist whose office is almost an hour away from my house.
Something is wrong with her but no one knows quite what it is yet. Pardon me for not going into details, I’m very tender on the topic at the moment.
This wasn’t how I pictured things. It’s very exhausting. It’s kind of scary. It’s also very hard because I can’t fix it.
My milk production still hasn’t kicked in, I have a very dedicated doctor and lactation consultant and together we’re doing everything possible to make it work. Even Vivi’s doctor said most women quit by now, especially under these circumstances, and that I am making a heroic effort with everything I’m doing to make breastfeeding possible.
That made me feel better.
But spending half your day in doctor’s offices and hospitals is not relaxing and makes this whole milk making business tricky.
But I’ll keep going.
Because she’s so very worth it.
making unbreakable - formerly moosh in indy. 
she is so, so beautiful girl. praying for you guys…
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I love you. And Vivi and Addie and Cody. Praying my head off.
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Thank you for letting us pray.
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I hope you get answers soon, and that those answers come with solutions.
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Oh, and be kind to yourself.
Breastfeeding can be a stress of it’s own. You are truly truly heroic to try so hard.
It turned out badly for me and it didn’t need to. Congrats on finding support, and I just want to validate what you’re doing.
IT’S AMAZING!
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Oh Casey, I am so very sorry. There is nothing worse than knowing your child is sick and there being nothing you can do to fix it right.now.
I will keep you all in my prayers and pray that the Lord will help her doctors to know how best to help your sweet girl.
Lots of love to you Mama.
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Hugs for you and your family. I am praying you have answers soon. xoxo
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Oh, she is so beyond worth it. Passing strength you and your husband’s way.
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Hello insult, meet injury! After everything else, this is just TOO MUCH. Sometimes everything to do with little babies is terrifying… can’t wait to hear that she (and you) will be just fine.
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she looks perfect to me. so sorry to hear about the health worries and testing – it makes my heart hurt for you and your family. hope you get some answers soon.
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I wish you both, actually you all, health, abundant milk production and abundant snuggle time with that little adoragirl.
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Oh luvie. She is so absolutely gorg, I am in love! Prayers for you all! {{hugs}}
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Prayers and hugs sent to you all! I hope they figure out what the problem is and she is better soon! She is too too sweet!
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Your little girl is very lucky that she was born into such love. The unknown is scary. I hope you find answers fast and that your “boobie buffet” is feeding Vivi very soon:)
I’ll be praying for all the good things you,Cody,Addie and Vivi deserve.
xo
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Big love and prayers to you and yours.
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oh sweet vivi! she’s beautiful. i pray that they’re able to figure out what is going on with her soon, and i pray that you, cody, addie, and vivi are given guidance and peace to deal with whatever comes your way.
big hugs to you, casey.
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Sending tons of love and prayers your way, Casey.
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I started to write a long winded comment and the decided to e-mail instead.
Love you.
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Thinking of you and your beautiful family. Just remember everything happens for a reason and God never hands out more than you can handle. You are a strong woman and are an inspiration to all of us!
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Oh dear, this is a tough time. You are in my thoughts and prayers. That Vivi girl,s pictures just melt my heart, she is so adorable, I had to show my husband her cuteness.
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Oh Casey, I’m so sorry that you are going through this. I know exactly what you are going through with the x-ray thing, but could not fathom not knowing what is wrong.
When Tanner had his issues, you and all of your internet friends helped me SO much, you can’t even imagine. I am sure that there are so many thoughts and prayers coming your way just like I could feel there were for me. And I didn’t even know so many of the people they were coming from!
If there is anything I can do… someone to cry with, someone to scream at (cuz I know you want to), or just someone to talk to that has been through something similar with hospitals and nurses with such a tiny baby, please hit me up.
I am praying and sending good thoughts towards you, Vivi and your cute little family!
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Praying for you guys. After having my baby girl in the SCU (special care unit) after she was born it is always scary.
Vivi has a great family around so here is to hoping they find the issue fast!
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Oh GOD, I understand.
When my 3rd (now 14mos) was 5 days old we went to the ER. Full septic workup, EKG, MRI, CT Scan, Xrays, spinal tap. All of this on my tiny baby.
Then a 24 hour video EEG with electrodes glued on her head. She looked like a crash test victim.
A week in the hospital and nine different specialists, because I KNEW something was wrong with her. We left with a diagnosis of benign infant seizures, and a script for anti seizure meds. I’ve so been there. It’s beyond anything that a postpartum mom can describe to anyone. But I get it, and if you EVER need to just dump on someone who understands, feel free to email me. Livie is 14 months now, and while developmentally delayed, she’s precious beyond life itself.
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Much love.
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Sending prayers for your family Casey, she’s a precious little girl!
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I know what it is like to give birth to a child who had unexpected health issues.
Which means, my shoulder is yours if you need someone to talk to who understands all the joy and the pain you may be feeling.
Love you kid.
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Vivi is so, so beautiful. I love her. She’s so lucky to have you guys. You’re a champ for keeping up the hard work. I hope there are answers soon.
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thinking good thoughts for you all.
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hugs and love to you Case!!Oh Casey, this new baby girl is so sweet and precious and I know she will bring you lots of joy, and one day you’ll tease her about how stressful her first week on earth was!!
Here’s to figuring it out fast, and may it be nothing ore than a memory in the distant future my friend.
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Thinking of you. Sending you lots of Xs and Os.
Love you.
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Oh, my heart is breaking for you- this must be so hard. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I pray you will find the answers you’re looking for soon.
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I’m so sorry you guys have to go through all of this. Miss Vivi is so beautiful!
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I can’t fathom what you’re going through, but I wish you the best and will keep you and your family in my thoughts.
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Prayers for an easy diagnosis with nothing scary, the nursing difficulties to end and you to only have to worry about what you want for dinner. Hugs to the whole Moosh clan.
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she is so sweet! this must be really hard and emotional. thinking of you lots and lots and lots. sending vibes of wellness and peace. xo
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Sending hugs and prayers to you & Miss Vivi!
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I’ve spent parts of this last week at Riley hospital, so I know how your blood runs cold and your heart simultaneously drops to your stomach and leaps up out of your throat. I’ll keep your sweet family in my prayers.
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She’s such a little gorgeous angel. You’ll all be in my prayers, I hope the doctors find out all the details and SOON. (And that the news is positive.)
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Breastfeeding is great and all – but there is only so much stress one person can handle. Thinking of you and hoping you have a good answer soon.
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Big big hugs. Everything will work itself out. She will be fine.
Thinking about you girls. And by that I mean not only you and Viv, but also your boobs. But not in a creepy way. Promise.
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Love and prayers. I know how scary it is to have something wrong with your baby and not know what it is. From here, she looks absolutely perfect in every way.
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I hope you get some answers very soon. I’ll say a prayer for you all and sweet baby Vivi.
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I am so very sorry to hear this! I feel like a prat because of my comment on your breastfeeding post…I was under the impression that if cabbage leaves were involved, than you had an oversupply! :O/
My daughter was diagnosed with Autoimmune Neutropenia at 15 months. I know how you are feeling and just know we are all here for you and thinking good thought for Vivi and saying prayers for her! Keep us updated!
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Much love to you as you go down this road. I hope that they are able to find out what is wrong quickly and that you get good solutions for dealing with whatever it is.
That face is to die for, she is so gorgeous.
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lots of prayers and love coming yr way sweetie. She is gorgeous and I can’t wait to meet her someday soon. I love you sweet thing. xo
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Many hugs and prayers coming to you, the gorgeous Vivi, and the whole family. You are a remarkable mother, and I hope you get answers and solutions soon.
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She’s simply precious. Hugs, love & prayers being sent your way…
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YAY and HOORAY! she is beautiful. i wish you peace and lots of good vibes coming your way. i hope the doctors figure things out soon. *hugs*
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Take care of yourself, you sweet thing. Breastfeeding difficulties plus baby health issues can take it all out of you. Praying and hoping the best for you and Miss Vivi.
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@Candace, P.S. You are already an amazing, heroic mother….regardless of how Vivi gets fed. Just wanted to make sure someone tells you that.
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Sending you love and good thoughts and hope for answers soon. She’s beautiful, Casey. So so beautiful.
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