nimble I’m not, happy I am.

There have been many mentions about how uncomfortable I must be with this fully cooked human that has over taken the front of my body.

leading with my mozzi.

The truth? I’m not really that uncomfortable.

Yes, I get heartburn from really weird stuff, I can’t roll over in bed without getting winded, getting off the couch (or a chair, or out of the car, or off the ground) is comical and I certainly won’t be winning any awards for leaping buildings in a single bound (Let’s be honest, I won’t even be circling them on the ground in a graceful manner. TAXI!) But overall? I’m not bad.

I’m not one of those women who will be screaming at my doctor to “HURRY UP AND GET THIS BABY OUT OF ME ALREADY!”  I kind of really super duper wanted her in there in the first place, so I’m going to enjoy the time I have with her. She’s safe, she’s well fed and there are very few choking hazards in there. I am also not the type to take to drastic eviction methods (I’m looking at you castor oil) nor do I want to be induced. (Pitocin and I are not on speaking terms.)

I guess the hardest part is that I stink at surprises and acquiring babies is one of the last great surprises left. Could my water break in the Costco checkout line? Maybe I’ll have to poke Cody at 4 am and whisper “it’s time” or maybe I’ll birth a baby in the toilet, SURPRISE! (but really, no thank you on this last one.) Mozzi could easily be a boy, have dark hair and weigh 9 pounds (also, no thank you!!) I’ve had adoptive friends go from childless to parents before their milk expires and I’ve had dinner with pregnant friends only to find out 12 hours later they’re in a hospital snuggling a new baby that came out of them.

I can’t shake the package on this one. I can’t google the return address. I have no tracking number and no delivery guarantees.

39 weeks.

I just get to enjoy it.

48 thoughts on “nimble I’m not, happy I am.

  1. I needed to read this post today as it is officially my due date and I am still massively pregnant! I have the same feelings toward pitocin and castor oil, so I guess I’ll just be (impatiently) waiting this little guy out! 🙂 Good luck!

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  2. I so felt the same way. My doc and nurse were shocked that I actually was hoping to make it to 38 weeks and said they had never heard a woman with twins actually say they wanted to hold off on induction. I’m getting super excited to see Mozzi.

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  3. I think “waiting for baby” is one of the greatest exercises in letting go of control. So hard, but so wonderful.

    I’m so excited to see how this great adventure unfolds for you! All the best, Casey!

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  4. SO PRETTY! Baby having is one of the best surprises in life. Even with my freaky planner self, we didn’t find out the gender of our baby. Of course, that was the least of our problems when he threw us for a loop and came at 36 weeks. (!?!?!?!?) Enjoy your time with Mozzi on the inside.

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  5. This is beautiful. What a great attitude! My second and third were born at 42 weeks and 41w1d, respectively, so I understand the waiting game. I hope that Mozzi comes at just the right time- whenever that may be.

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  6. My final days of pregnancy thighs did not look like that at all. I didn’t have a wide enough lens to capture my massive size. So this to say: you look great!

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  7. This sums it up perfectly. They come when they are good and ready, and it is up to US to wait and be ready whenever they are.
    You look great Mama.

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  8. i’m so excited for you, cody and addie! whenever mozzi decides she’s ready to join the outside world, it’ll be perfect.

    also? you look amazing.

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  9. I’ve done both the dinner-party-and-12-hours-later and the 4-am thing with my kids. Both are pretty fun, really. I’m currently trying to figure out what to do with a defunct due date. I was due tomorrow. None of the women I personally know who’ve had miscarriages made it to their old due date without acquiring a new one. This is kind of a weird waiting game for me, too. I can’t wait to see Mozzi. I’m sure she’s stunningly beautiful.

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  10. Oh sweet Jesus, I love you SO FREAKING MUCH. That is all I can say. And that I’ll be following along on Twitter and I hope everything goes smoothly for you and I can’t wait to hear (except I can). But mostly just that I really, really love you and every little thing about this post. xoxoxo

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  11. You look flawless. Your attitude is also flawless. I was always content to wait, too. The end of pregnancy is shrouded in mystery, which I love, and the knowledge that it’s not in my hands…also, love. I had a friend deliver Coldstone cupcakes because he felt sorry that I was still pregnant past my due date. Less than seven hours after his cupcake delivery, I got to text him and tell him that I’d had a baby.

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  12. You look beautiful. Enjoy these last days. I remember missing being pregnant even though I loved having my adorable baby in my arms. But, if she is past her due date, there are more fun ways to help speed up the process that Cody can help you with. *wink, wink*

    I wish you a speedy delivery, whenever she decides to make her appearance.

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  13. You are beautiful. When my parents had me the had a ‘phone call to tell them to come and collect a little girl, the next day. They had nothing in because they were afraid to get up their hopes.

    It is so good you can enjoy each moment. She will be here soon.

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  14. I am sharing in your anticipation! This is making me want another one, which is not good because our first is only 7 months old! I was much more of a control freak about when the baby was coming because I was so excited to meet her. I should have cherished those last few days together more. DH and I helped things along the good ‘ol fashioned way 😉

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  15. It’s kind of amazing, how quickly one can go from a holding pattern to a whole lot of progress, both in pregnancy and adoption. That’s the longest run on sentence ever.

    I’m finding some peace in the wait right now, in the calm before our whole world turns upside down. I’d imagine you are too. But it’s a weird feeling to ache to hold my sons at the same time that I am profoundly grateful they aren’t caught in the crazy that’s happening at our home right now.

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  16. I am so happy for you! You are just beautiful. If you could go ahead and have the baby in the next few days it would sure brighten up these gray rainy Indiana days now wouldn’t it? Hmmmmmm?

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  17. You look SPECTACULAR!!!

    Blessings of love and happiness to the now and what’s to come…enjoy the ride and know that if it gets bumpy, you have a lot of friends who’ll gladly help you out. 🙂

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  18. Hey there Miss Casey! You look absolutely beautiful in all your pregnancy glory! I haven’t been able to keep up with your blog lately or comment on the posts I’ve wanted to… but before this new baby makes its arrival, I did want to let you know that I am so truly happy for you!! I can see what a great and fun mom you are already to Addie, and I am so excited that you get to experience that with a second one now. Again, you are beautiful, and I’m glad you’re enjoying being just where you are and cherishing every little thing. 🙂 Will be thinking about you and praying for safe arrival of the new family member!

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  19. I have a small story for all you castor oil wannabeeee’s. Yeah. I was there. I’ve been there. I also was the one who the castor oil didn’t kick in until 15 hours later….you know. When I was pushing. And I pooped all over my hot doctor. Then had explosive poopies 2 hours after giving birth. Yup. That was a ball. Don’t do it.

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