Checking off Several of the Deadly Sins.

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So there’s this thing I want to talk about.

But I don’t. Because I like you and I don’t want you to not like me because of the fact that you’re human.

Now if it were ten years ago and I didn’t like you so much (which would have most likely been the case given that I was a mean person) I would have already told you, rubbed it in your face and sealed it with lacquer.

When I was pregnant and barfing up my intestines women would look at me, tsk tsk and let me know HOW GLAD THEY WERE THAT THEY WEREN’T ME.

Thanks.

However, after I had given birth and came back to work with a 28″ waist and size 4 jeans all I heard was “I HATE YOU YOU LUCKY DUCK.”

Really?

Barfing your brains out is now considered lucky? Bring on the lucky toilet seat and I’ll display it proudly on my desk.

I would imagine the lame anxiety I’m feeling is similar to close friends of mine who tell me that they are pregnant. Or millionaires.

Here goes.

In exactly two weeks I will be flown to NYC at the expense of HP because of a review I have been doing on this little lovely. I will be put up in a swanky hotel on Times Square for three nights. I will have the opportunity to attend fashion week and a private party at Vivienne Tam’s boutique.

If I were not myself I’d hate myself too.

We humans, we’re such inherently jealous beings.

I can admit that I have watched other bloggers go on cruises, vacations, getaways, to private parties and receive swag that would blow anyone’s mind. And I fully admit to thinking “WHAT’S SO GREAT ABOUT HER?” or “I GET MORE TRAFFIC THAN HER.” or “I WOULD HAVE BEEN SUCH A BETTER CHOICE FOR THAT.”

Guilty as charged.

Am I ashamed?

Yes.

I was a jerk to think those things. I would have never wanted someone to think those things about me if anything spectacular were to ever happen to me. So I stopped being such a wench and started celebrating with others when they had reason to celebrate.

And then this opportunity came to me. An absolute dream come true. Remember how I feel about NYC?

And wouldn’t you believe it, I went poking around on the internet a couple of nights ago and found more bloggers getting things that I wasn’t. And the jealousy started to sink it’s teeth into my brain again.

I am so far from perfect it’s not even funny.

Blessed? Yes.

Grateful? Not as much as I should be.

Perfect? *insert manical laughter here*

So you’re not perfect either, right? *nervous giggle*

55 thoughts on “Checking off Several of the Deadly Sins.”

  3. Knowing what you went through during your pregnancy would never had made me utter those words – even though you being so damn thin after would have pissed me off. But that’s MY issue with ME not being thin, not with YOU being thin!!
    And you getting to go to NYC? That’s fracking awesome! So when you start to feel envious of other people getting more than you? Think of ME – I don’t get ANYTHING!!! hehe

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  6. It’s so totally human to be inherently jealous of such things. I’m always jealous that you have the moosh and some of the neat opportunities you get (Oh and your HAIR and CAMERA)…

    But I’m also thankful for things I have that you don’t… like a skunk. 🙂

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  7. I may lurk more than I comment, but dude…you have a charmed life! Until (and note the word I chose) you have another child, you’re more mobile with a preschooler AND you’ve been able to do some travelling. You clearly have made some amazing blogger friends. Your photography is progressing nicely.

    …So, just thought you’d need another note from yet another admirer!

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  8. Good lord no I’m not perfect. I am admittedly guilty of a little bit of that jealousy.
    But hey I’m human. I try not to let it make me want to do evil things to people 😉

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  9. I’m new to your blog and I know I’m in the right place because I am often bitten by the jealous bug. What I try to do when I find myself turning green with envy is to think about why I am jealous of that person and that if what they have is something I really want, then I’m going to go and get it. Dammit!

    PositivelyAnnas last blog post..2/3/08 – Thank you TLC

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  10. Good for you! I hope you have an excellent time. As an aside, I remember reading somewhere that jealousy was about you and envy was about the other person. I always try to keep that in mind, and remind myself to be envious, not jealous. Or be neither, because that’d be nice, too.

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  12. Oh YEAH? We’ll I’M got a galley of a breastfeeding book to review from a publisher located in…wait for it…Brooklyn!

    So tell Vivienne hoositwatsy to stuff that in her purse.

    Yeah. I’ve got nuthin.

    Sounds like a blast. Have a great time!

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  16. Of course I’m perfect. Sheesh.

    Are you done laughing yet? I love you even more now. I am constantly amazed at you and please don’t take offense when I run from you at BlissDom because yah, I am so not in your sphere of awesomeness. Yah. so. um…..

    I saw your Vivenne Tam review on your blog and I immediately thought: Damn, that is fabulous. Casey is perfect for that. and you are, hell yes I was a bit jealous, but you know what. You’ve earned that and you’ve earned the respect and power that you’re now receiving. You inspire, you touch and you are a powerful writer. Hell yes, I wish I was getting those goodies that you are, but those have been earned and who am I to expect something to be handed to me just because I want it.

    Ok. going to crawl back to my corner now 😉

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  17. This is great, congrats! Hopefully when you come to NYC it will be less cold and more hospitable than today.
    Oh, and I absolutely LOVE that little laptop. I saw it in a store in Dec in black and fell in love with it. It’s so small and so cute. If I had the extra cash I would have gotten it already for sure.

    Jens last blog post..Grace in Small Things: 15 of 365

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  18. 1. yep I’m totally green with envy.

    2. at least you do deserve it (unlike other blogger royalties that I’ve seen in the past)

    3. I’ll be ok, because I have 5 glorious days in March that I get to roam the streets of NYC myself (and staying right on times square myself).

    4. I know you will let us all know *in the kindest way possible* how incredibly awesome it is!!!!

    5. WooHoo! I’m excited and I’m not even invited!!!!

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  19. Ooo! Have fun you lucky duck!

    I never feel like I should be getting something like that because my blog traffic is about nil! But I do pout because I never seem to win anything when bloggers have lil give-a-ways.

    Thanks for the reminder to be thankful and have a super time.

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  21. I won’t lie- I am totally jealous because that sounds AWESOME. But I’m not jealous in a ‘I want to punch her in the face’ kind of way. Just in a ‘wow that’s awesome, I wish I could be her for a day or two, good for her!’ way. Go have fun because you can 🙂 Enjoy it!!

    Jens last blog post..February is my boyfriend.

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  22. of course we’re envious. it’s really hard to watch what feels like at times, SO MANY PEOPLE getting things, and trips, and gadgets- and it’s easy to feel left out in the cold. especially when you consider yourself in the same “class” as those people…

    i think it’s awesome that you’re getting to do all that kick ass stuff! do i wish i got the same invite? of course!!!!! but i would never NOT want you to have it.. know what i mean? 🙂

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  23. Are you kidding me!? I am sooooo freaking jealous and NOT afraid to admit it.

    It’s not fair!! *Foot stomping*

    I wanna be special!! *Jumping up and down*

    Why you!? Why NOT ME!!!! *Throwing self on ground*

    Everyone else gets special treatment but me!!! *rolling around on the ground*

    WHY!? WHY?! WHY!?!? *stomping the ground as I lay on my back*

    *Hyperventilating through the tears*

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  25. I haven’t even got free shoes yet. I am way jealous and I admit it. But, I like you so much that I’m really, truly happy for you. Though, if I told you so it would be through gritted teeth.

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  27. Whenever I hear about trips like yours, I find myself doing the blogger benefit jealousy checklist:

    Do I have a higher technorati score? check
    more subscribers? check
    more traffic? who knows, but I’d guess about the same

    AND YET I HAVE NO TRIPS. BAH. BAH, I SAY.

    It’s like being excluded from the cool chick clique. I can pretend like I don’t care, but I SO. DO.

    I won’t even apologize, I’m too jealous too apologize. When does the FREE STUFF gravy train head in my direction?

    Pffft.

    Sues last blog post..I Know What You Are Probably Thinking

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  28. I hope you have an amazing time. You deserve it.

    As for jealous? The swag is lovely, and I am tremendously grateful to have won one contest ever (yes, yours; I have NEVER won ANYTHING before that) and to have had some great free shoes (sorry MomoFali) — but I can’t begrudge other people the trips and the big swag because I am sure they work harder at this than I do.

    This is not to say that I am not a person with envies, but rather that they are in different arenas. My envy tends towards people who are better writers than I, whose houses are cleaner, who have more patience with childish idiosyncrasies, or who have the book contract I so desperately want.

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  31. As a matter of fact, I am perfect. (Besides the brain and boob and the crazy all those other extremely imperfect things.)

    I am also VERY jealous. Very very jealous. I was in NYC 2 weeks ago, but the graduate school interview was much less glamorous than fashion week. Or so I’d assume. And if it wasn’t, then fashion week is so blown out of proportion in the media.

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  32. :: raises hand :: I have no readers, no reviews, no money.

    Jealous? Totally.

    But also? I get to see you again in like two days. So I’m gonna lick and then live vicariously through you. 😉

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  33. I think it’s awesome that you get to go to the Big Apple and remember thou shall (shalt?) not covet. You know the one…
    Have fun and stop COMPARING, you are great, wonderful and stinkin’ awesome JUST the way you are!

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  34. So great! Have a fabuloso time!!!

    And, I think it’s relatively normal to feel a certain amount of jealousy. When it starts to grip you and drive your actions and thoughts, that’s when it’s a problem.

    Headless Moms last blog post..I Am A Writer

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  41. haha. as i was reading this post, my friend told me his sister just won an all-expense paid trip to barbados and i’m all “my god…i’m SO jealous!”

    i have lots of good things happen to me all the time, and i’m truly, truly happy for all the good things that people get thrown at them, but yet, that mean green monster comes out at times too. people who say they never envy are lying!

    but, ENJOY NEW YORK!!!

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  43. You are so lucky!! I’m jealous of course (I’ve wanted that laptop for months-ever since I first saw it on Mommy Track’d) but I’m happy for you too. Fashion Week! Oh I would just DIE of happiness.

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  45. As a girl who’s been nursing a bad case of book deal envy for a few weeks (seriously, if I hear about one more person)…I’m as human as it gets.

    But your trip sounds amazing, and so much fun. And I’m not actually jealous.

    Unless you get a book deal while you’re there. All bets are off, then. Even though I would send hearty and sincere congratulations.

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  47. It’s hard for me to be too (emphasis on the too) jealous since I’ve met you and the Moosh. You deserve this. Enjoy it! And enjoy those moments knowing everyone wishes they could be in your shoes. It is only human. On my part, I hope to channel the green eyed monster and use it to make me a better writer and make my blog better so those things come my way too.

    Melanie @ Mel, A Dramatic Mommys last blog post..Wordles Wednesday: Proud As A Peacock

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  50. Dood, after our convo…the first thing I admitted was my jealousy! I am so FREAKING excited for you. I can’t wait to hear all about it. The best thing? You get to take your hubby. Now, if that isn’t bomb, I don’t know what is.

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