let your mess be your message

There is a remarkable amount of pain in acknowledging that some of the greatest strengths in my children are a result of the hell they’ve been through. Something told me to go back and read Heather’s last post that she published before ending her life. From what she writes in her last published post, whereContinue reading “let your mess be your message”

choosing to live as rebellion.

TW: suicide/suicidal ideation This morning, I looked at what it would take to buy a gun in Indiana. A few hundred bucks and my driver’s license that matches my mailing address, and I could have a gun by noon and be dead by one*. I wonder how well I could hold it together. How wellContinue reading “choosing to live as rebellion.”

a psychedelic coming out.

I keep coming back with this boundless optimism that I have survived every terrible thing I thought would end me up to this point, so why should this be any different? It may look different than I had anticipated, it may take a little longer, but if I know one thing, it’s worth it to keep going.