depression – Page 8 – making unbreakable

change my hair, change the whoorld.

Last year just before BlogHer I had my hairs done. Not only was it the best hair did session I had ever had, I had also finally found someone. Someone who I could just sit down in her chair and say “FIX THIS” and she did. Perfectly. The stylist ended up breaking her shoulder aboutContinue reading “change my hair, change the whoorld.”

corny life skill number one.

***this is the post that is going to be known as corngate ’09. this post is for THOSE people. who burn boiling water. who have to call their sisters to find out how to make canned tomato soup. who think frozen waffles are fine dining. true corn lovers know that grilling is the best wayContinue reading “corny life skill number one.”

healing my helplessness.

I finally learned all the right words to “Silent Night” tonight. It’s the moosh’s favorite bedtime song along with “Baby Mine.” Since December I’ve hummed and la la la’ed through verses two and three when I wasn’t entirely sure of what went next. And let me tell you, the moosh has no problem letting meContinue reading “healing my helplessness.”

reset.

These are the days that puzzle me the most. I wake up from restless sleep, begin my day only to become more and more anxious as the day goes on. Feeling overwhelmed, incredibly frustrated. I look around and realize that I’m doing the same thing I do everyday. Picking up the same messes, washing theContinue reading “reset.”

Hot: Day 5-Lowlights of my depressive history.

One of my friends let me know that she had heard my blog mentioned to day on a local radio station as a resource for depression. Phew. Nicole? Thanks for letting me know. And Laura, whoever you are? Thank you for thinking I know what I’m talking about. I looked around tonight for my journals.Continue reading “Hot: Day 5-Lowlights of my depressive history.”

I pray you will dance.

I got an email from a reader the other day who happens to have a lot in common with my occasional bouts of crazy. She told me she started reading my blog when I posted “The Overdose“, the post I read at the Community Keynote at BlogHer ’08. She is currently treading some heavy watersContinue reading “I pray you will dance.”

If you have to go crazy, make sure you’re insured.

Do you have any idea how much better my brain functions at 78 degrees? Or 85 degrees if a swimming pool is nearby? Way better. The last time I was blindsided by depression was in February. Blah, icky, gloomy, stupid February. And I also have a confession to make. This last little bout? Totally moreContinue reading “If you have to go crazy, make sure you’re insured.”

But it felt SO REAL.

I had some serious mommy issue dreams when I was pregnant. As in, woke-up-crying-I-don’t-care-if-it-wasn’t-real-it-felt-real-and-you-can’t- change-my-mind-I-will-never-be-the-same-my-mom-and-everybody- else-hates-me-dreams. Phew. It’s true, I haven’t forgotten them. I’ve also had a couple about my sister. Dreams that seem so real that they screw up your day. You know you’re messed up and confused about something, it’s just that somethingContinue reading “But it felt SO REAL.”

Depression? Pregnancy? You know, because they’re so similar.

Starting a new medication when there’s a slight chance you may be pregnant is not something to do if you’re somewhat anxiety ridden about the whole pregnancy issue. Obviously there is the fear of a three legged baby, or maybe not even a baby, maybe one of those fuzzy things from Star Trek could comeContinue reading “Depression? Pregnancy? You know, because they’re so similar.”