Category Archives: depression

I am so tired. I have been walking the fine line between okay and not okay for the last several weeks. Truth is I want to stop walking and simply crumple into a heap. Winter is so close. The signs of darkness and cold are becoming harder and harder to ignore, and they are wrappingContinue reading “crumple.”

I think I’ve mentioned before that I have a folder in my email titled “Warm Fuzzies” where I keep the kind heartfelt words that are sent to me. I have to be careful when I dip into them because they bring me to tears every time. I generally receive the most emails when I amContinue reading “the one about gratitude, hope and inspiration.”

So. Yeah. Remember how I was all “Things are getting kind of bad.” and you were all “I hope things get better!” and I was all “Thank you! This too shall pass!” Things didn’t get worse, but they didn’t get better. It’s still just bubbling, right under the surface. I told my Ami about itContinue reading ““you are stronger than anything broken inside of you.””

It’s certainly not depression. It most resembles anxiety. It’s bubbling just under the surface. A sort of knot in my stomach. A lump in my throat. A consistent reminder that something in my brain is broken. Capable of ruining everything at a moments notice. So far so good. I’d like to keep it that way.

I’d be remiss not to thank you for the excellent work you’ve been doing for me lately. Especially when it comes time to dominate my family at monkey match each night. I know you’re well aware that this whole making our living on the Internet thing is feast or famine and we’ve had to passContinue reading “dear brain,”

I am very happy. (So is Vivi.) And for the first time in a very long time I am not listening and waiting for the other shoe drop. It feels so good. If I could give you all a hit of how good I feel right now? You’d beg me to be your dealer. WhenContinue reading “happiness happens.”

My friend Heather talks a lot about her heart gut. Maybe it’s because I have so much in common with Heather that I know exactly what she’s talking about when she speaks of her heart gut or maybe it’s something we all understand but on very different levels. The author of one of my favoriteContinue reading “the one about addie’s heart gut.”

Have you ever been out with your friends at dinner and one starts to get uncomfortable because the waistband on her pants is just a little too tight and it’s starting to give her gas while your other friend has blisters from the shoes she hasn’t worn in awhile and no one has a band-aidContinue reading “pausing for the pinchy pants.”