casey coombs

sixth grade dreams and a lifetime of reality.

“Why don’t you brush your teeth?” That was the first thing out of the mouth of the boy I was hopelessly head over heels for in sixth grade. I tried to explain that I did brush my teeth, in fact I had never had a cavity! But I had too much fluoride as a kidContinue reading “sixth grade dreams and a lifetime of reality.”

loce.

When Cody and I were first together I felt the need to justify our relationship, to make the good exponentially awesome and pretend the bad didn’t exist. A lot of people (pretty much everyone who had ever known me) expected us (specifically me) to fail. I had gone from a wild and reckless existence toContinue reading “loce.”

there’s a party in my tummy, no wait…

Apparently there’s a reason to party in my tummy. Did you see this? Apparently a crap ton of you are in on it and have been since like, forever and I had no idea. Cody included. HOW DO YOU PEOPLE KEEP SECRETS? Can you write a book? And can I get a galley copy ofContinue reading “there’s a party in my tummy, no wait…”

socked in the gut.

“Baby’s moving like crazy?” “Yes, but I don’t remember feeling everything so low last time.” “Yeah, it’s because it’s your second. Everything’s looser in there.” Which led me to this. If your family is anything like mine, there’s reminders of your stretchy, stretchy uterus on the floor in every room. Especially right in front ofContinue reading “socked in the gut.”

how to be depressed. part 1.

I feel I need to mention that my last OB dyed his hair black and on regular occasion missed enormous graying chunks. He sang a little song to the nurses in the delivery room as he was suiting up to get Addie out and he had a total Tom Selleck mustache. I’m taller than myContinue reading “how to be depressed. part 1.”

when your only option is through.

My dad does this thing where if I complain about something he comes back with “Well at least you…” “It’s so hard having Cody gone at school all the time.” “Well at least you know where he is, he’s not off in Afghanistan somewhere getting shot at.” “Addie won’t sleep, she’s up crying every nightContinue reading “when your only option is through.”

enveloped.

It feels as though there are invisible hands choking me. The grip is tighter sometimes than others. At this moment? It’s tight. I’m afraid to move for fear of it truly overtaking me again like it did on Friday. It gets tighter when Cody isn’t next to me. And at the moment he’s not. AndContinue reading “enveloped.”

smile later.

Even the soap is bossy. I am not well. I have over 300 unread and unresponded to emails. I collapsed in Cody’s arms today. I kept thinking I could pull myself out. I just needed one more day. But this isn’t going away this time. And it’s bad. Addie is witnessing it first hand, herContinue reading “smile later.”

sheboygan.

Yeah, there’s probably a little emotional stuff going on. May as well not try to lie to myself or to you. It’s more of a SAD thing than a depression thing though. I don’t think Indy has made it above 20 in several weeks. At least not on the days I’ve gone outside. Good newsContinue reading “sheboygan.”

these twocago.

I was able to spend 36 hours in Chicago with my little family. Even more specifically this man. This Lego building, goofy face making, Coke drinking, pizza eating, little kid carrying, ice skater watching, best smelling, most comfortable man in my entire world. How I ended up with him, I don’t know. But I goContinue reading “these twocago.”